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I know, I suck. [Apr. 13th, 2011|04:54 pm]
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I've had this one done for a while now, but time just hasn't allowed me to post it.

How does the recording begin?Collapse )
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(no subject) [Apr. 8th, 2011|04:16 pm]
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It got worse.
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(no subject) [Apr. 5th, 2011|01:06 pm]
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Woo, incoming unpaid vacation.

If this doesn't break everything, I'm afraid of what WILL.
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(no subject) [Apr. 4th, 2011|03:38 pm]
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Everything good gets taken away.
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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2011|01:00 pm]
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[mood |shockedMY MIND IS BLOWN]




My mind is officially blown.

Holy crap.
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(no subject) [Mar. 23rd, 2011|03:28 pm]
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So I'm going to start this off by telling you about something that went (sort of) right this year.

Late last week I got a package from cyfis who, wonderful soul that she is, had decided to try and cheer me up a little. Having kept track of my previous bitching, she sent me a PSP and a number of games I'd like.

...somehow I managed to miss her when I explained, in general, that I'd said "fuck my housemate and fuck it all, I'm getting myself what I want for my birthday" and picked it up anyway. Oops. But that doesn't change the nature of the gift and the sentiment behind it, which meant a lot more to me than I have words for.

So that's a good thing. That's the thing that went right this year. Asterisk or no, it went right.

I wish I could say the same for everything else. I actually felt my remaining dregs of hope die last night. That was an interesting sensation that led to a furious crying fit followed by fifteen straight minutes of laughter. I mean that very literally. I laughed for fifteen straight minutes. Just plain could not stop. To be honest, it was scary. And...

I don't know. I know our housemate will not get another job. (At 4 months of unemployment, the chances are already low even if he hadn't botched his interviews and ruined his offers with bad credit. At six months, it is pretty much impossible; that's the cutoff at which a person becomes pretty much unemployable.) All I have left to count on is a miracle... and I don't believe in miracles. Otherwise, I can't see any way out. The path has been laid down inescapably, and all I can do is walk it.

The bright side is that every day I get through is one day closer to the day I can finally die.
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Standard LJ post [Mar. 17th, 2011|05:09 pm]
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Bad things happened since the last time I posted, whine whine whine.
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(no subject) [Mar. 11th, 2011|04:43 pm]
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/curls up in a corner and shivers
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(no subject) [Mar. 10th, 2011|01:40 pm]
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So I went to get some food from the local Chinese-that-says-Cajun place in Union Station because I like putting hot sauce on their lo mein. As soon as I stepped into the line, they ran out of lo mein.

I thought that was an inspired-enough cheap shot to deserve retelling.
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More memage [Mar. 2nd, 2011|03:25 pm]
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Taken from elf_fu, it's the classic five question meme.

1 - Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 - I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 - You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 - You'll include this explanation.
5 - You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

Nothing new under the sun, folks.

1.) There's a saying about a story, that the main character should get what they need and not what they want. In the story of your life, do you think that you've gotten what you needed, or what you wanted?

God help me, I hope my story isn't over. I'm sure I haven't gotten what I've wanted, and the only way I've gotten what I've needed is if I was an absolutely terrible person in a previous life and am getting the serious karmic backlash I've earned in this reincarnation.

2.) Do you believe that happiness is a state of being, or a thing to obtain?

It's both a journey and a destination. It's a state to achieve, but once in it, you need to keep walking the path, because as soon as you stop you stagnate and the happiness becomes stale.

3.) Just how many memes DO you have on that list?

The list of memes to do had two items on it, counting this one. You see how fast I got to it.

4.) Do you think we'll ever remember to get this box to the post office so we can send it to you? Because I'm wondering that myself.

Probably not. And if you do, it will get lost in the mail.

5.) One moment in your life that you would go back and willingly put on repeat to live it over and over again?

I... don't know. Maybe it's just my mood right now, but all I can recall are the things my mind puts on repeat to depress and terrify me.

Walking off the plane to meet tigerphoenix in person for the first time was pretty good, though.
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Because it is a light day at work [Mar. 2nd, 2011|03:08 pm]
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So here is a meme I was supposed to do like 3 weeks ago and I have forgotten all the details except that six icons got selected and I have to explain them. S'yeah, here it is.



This was drawn ages and ages ago from my senior picture, believe it or not, by Mookie of Dominic Deegan fame. A friend (at the time) paid for it as part of a commission-thing he was doing. I was only peripherally aware of all this, and stumbled onto the comic independently much later. Funny things, coincidences.



So Phantom Brave, one of my favorite games, has a random dungeon system in which every so often a floor would be generated with a special condition. The effect of THIS particular floor was that everything was either confused or asleep, I forget which. Really, the text just amuses me. And it has a Prinny.



Ruri from Martian Successor Nadesico: quiet, serious, deadpan, and moe. Called the entire rest of the crew idiots.



Vegeta was always my favorite Dragon Ball Z character. I've always had a nonironic love for the show and the character in particular. So here is Majin Vegeta, enjoying the hell out of himself as he blows up innocent bystanders and spectators.



FiReNoMo was amberdine's idea. The thought runs thusly: NaNoWriMo's goal is 50,000 words, but the typical length of a genre fiction piece is twice that, 100,000. Let's make December into Finish the Rest of the Novel Month. As the icon makes clear, I won.



Good ol' Super Mario Bros. Super Show.
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(no subject) [Feb. 28th, 2011|04:03 pm]
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[mood |crushedcrushed]

My WoW guild has pretty much collapsed.

We're a slower raiding guild. We're not hardcore and not a lot of people rushed to 85 or anything, so we didn't get a chance to start raiding till about a month ago. That came after we laboriously got enough people to 85, geared, and in the proper roles. I personally put a ton of work into this as the raid coordination officer. That means for everyone I double-checked to make sure they hadn't made any boneheaded mistakes (like forgetting to swap glyphs) and approved them to join our raiding team.

For doing all that, I got a ton of abuse from one member who just couldn't be bothered to fulfill the requirements of the review. When his refusals finally led me to deny him simply because he was a total asshole who no one wanted to raid with, he decided to get publicly vitriolic with me, and eventually got asked to leave the guild.

A week or two down the line, one guild member declares he's going to quit after farming 60,000 gold to buy a mount. Guess he burnt himself out a bit. Another one, who'd been complaining since Cata released how nothing was fun any more (because druid healing actually required some goddamn thought instead of faceroll HOTs, spam jump key) decided he'd quit too. Two more people (who, to be fair, were kind of jerks to begin with) flounced in the middle of the night, our GMs disappeared for a month to move...

So the guild is pretty much dead. And my options are basically "find a new guild" which is all sorts of bad news on my server, or "admit the time has come and quit WoW".

Really, it came at the worst possible time -- my stress level has been past what any person should be asked to tolerate for going on four months now, and having my major source of fun and entertainment just ripped away right now hurt. I can't even bring myself to log on any more.

Getting down to basics, though, I know I have only myself to blame. If I hadn't enjoyed it, I wouldn't have lost it.

Incidentally, I haven't forgotten my vow to post the first thing that goes right this year.
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(no subject) [Feb. 23rd, 2011|04:33 pm]
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Gather ye round for the greatest sideshow ever!Collapse )
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(no subject) [Feb. 14th, 2011|11:03 pm]
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Looks like my WoW days are about to be at an end.

I suppose it was too much to hope that ONE thing I enjoyed would be left to me.
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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2011|10:27 am]
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AT LAST A GAME REPORTCollapse )
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(no subject) [Jan. 17th, 2011|01:56 pm]
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You'd think a holiday, a day off, would be a good day to just decompress and breathe.

Then your video card decides it's giving up the ghost.
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(no subject) [Jan. 14th, 2011|11:59 am]
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[mood |tiredtired]

It's been forever since I updated. Shame on me. My only excuse is that I simply haven't found the willpower to write out a long, mostly unpleasant post that people won't really care about... but if ehzoterik can manage a post before I can, then I really feel ashamed, so here we go.

The past couple of months have been, to be blunt, miserable, stressful, and hellacious without exception.

To start with, my left ear has been ringing. Not constantly, but pretty much near-constantly. I've gone to the doctor, tried nasal steroids, even had a sinus CT scan done, and nothing. More and more, it looks like the answer is simply, "this happened for no good reason and has no treatable cause. Learn to live with it." The next step is seeing an ENT doctor, but the office I'm trying to make an appointment with is basically making that impossible. They refuse to schedule an appointment for February, despite the fact that I need to give my job my leave plans for that month now, and they demand a referral despite the fact that right on top of my freaking insurance card it says in bold letters 'NO REFERRAL NECESSARY.' Just... read this as pretty much a basis for how life goes for me. 'Shitty things happen for no reason which you can't do anything but suck up.'

The housemate is still out of a job, meaning I've been the sole money-earner for these past couple of months as well. It also means my stress level has skyrocketed just from the commute alone, since I can no longer carpool and take advantage of the HOV lanes. I've been restraining myself financially as much as possible, but I'm still faced with so much debt I can't ever foresee getting it paid off.

Speaking of work, that too has been going incredibly poorly. One of our competent workers left for a different job last month, and was replaced by a person who does, and I say this without hyperbole, no work. He sits and writes email all day. There would literally be no difference if he were replaced with a decorative rock garden, except the rock garden would have some Zen soothing qualities. Meanwhile, across the work aisle, I've coincidentally gotten the most largest and most punishing workloads of anybody in the unit, for no reason other than alleged coincidence. For example, the issue I am working on now will probably be 1800 pages. It will publish on Wednesday. Tuesday's issue will only be 800 pages. I'm thinking Wednesday's will be 1200, maximum, possibly much lower. The same thing happened last issue. Four issues ago, on December 28th, I got handed the largest issue since the publication of the Microsoft antitrust settlement.

This is fair and reasonable. Purely coincidence. I'm sure.

Game reports, I'm sure this is the only part of this anyone will care about... there have not been any game reports since the last one since there have not been any real GAMES since the last one until last Sunday. I'm working on the transcription, but my time to do so has been severely curtailed (see: no carpooling), so I will have it up when I have it up and not much before.

Honestly, I'm messed up as hell right now. Constant and unending stress has just fried me and disrupted my emotions and psychological balance very badly. But none of these problems is going to go away -- they're only going to get worse, in fact -- so all I can really do is tell myself to suck it up and stop whining. Obviously, this doesn't work so well.

Anyway, that's MY life for the past couple of months. I'm sure you could've gone a couple more without hearing me bitch.
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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2010|09:53 pm]
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I'm so tired of people getting good things handed to them out of nowhere while I have to struggle for basic things other people take for granted.

I'm just SO tired of it.
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(no subject) [Nov. 4th, 2010|03:03 pm]
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Well, the housemate just got fired.

There is literally no way I can see to survive the financial disaster which is now going to hit us with the force of a tsunami.

Game over.

Then again, that was inevitable when I got the life that was Nintendo Hard.
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(no subject) [Oct. 14th, 2010|02:04 pm]
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This one was actually painful to transcribe, involving as it does a sincerely unpleasant and awkward moment not in character for the group.

In which the DM quits (temporarily)Collapse )
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